Team, As you may have noticed I have not been on these boards, as frequently as I have used to be. This holds true with other boards too that I frequent. I have had a lot of personal tragedy lately. It all seems like a blur now but I am still living it. First off, I live in Southern California. Like the rest of the USA unemployment is at an all time high. Thank god I still have my job. However both my wifes parents lost thier job. So to make things easier we moved from our condo in with them to help. My wifes grandma also lived with us, she died 4 weeks ago from a massive heart attack. It came all of a sudden and was a shock to all. She was in great health for her age. Now my wifes mother is having heart problems, no job= no insurance. She cannot qualify for medicare because on unemployment she makes too much money. EG 1200 dollars a month. However that wont even cover the morgage, or even begin to cover utilities. Now my wife and I both work, and my wifes mother watches the kids. With her being in the hospital I have had to re-think baby sitting arrangments. Child care is expensive and I am so blessed other family members and friends have stepped up and helped out. It seems that there is so much going on, working full time, going to school full time in the evenings ( I graduate with my AA in september) and all this personal drama I am just to wore out to enjoy emulation. I have been lurking, not signing in. I just feel guilty. Im so used to contributing, something. Matt, I'm sorry if I have seemed distant. I did get your PM. I would love to visit when you come out. Tom and the rest of the gang. I have not abandoned you guys, it has just been really hard. I feel like I owe an explanation, so here it is. Brian Hoffman